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Hey D,
Am back writing. I'm surprised i've managed between the Nip/tuck, seinfeld, I've got to this page n now we blog again. May 05 is when we blogged here the first time d, n its Nov 06, we're getting older and none the wiser. Just finished listening to BBC Nepali, news from back home is hopeful, but I guess every1 is 'cautiously optimistic' about the whole thing. It seems so long that I cared abt HOME and it literally ached me to read news abt the cycle of violence that alwaz was there. I didnt exactly loose sleep or anything, I just knew that things werent supposed to b like this. 14000 fatalities of the war, mere numbers to us now. I'm just mute, not joyous over the peace accord, cause future still holds uncertainties, and I've been around for a while to know or well to be a pessimistic, i guess.

Shit's happened for us both in the past year. But 25th will be a big day for u guys, n I'm gonna b there, n we'll get drunk and hammered as usual. That day we make a toast to Nepal. because I want to, yes we have been running away from that place and that name always, but there are some good things there, 'memories immortalised' & the reality is disillusioned. D its happened in Nepal, may b it'll happen to us someday even if we dot care.
Peace out dude,
Been great knowing U all those years ( March '96 is when we first met in MIS) God Damn 10 years, what do we have to show for it??
Rock On the 25th.

A
The Album Leaf- We Once Were (one) [2 me n U, n the 1's that got away]

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back again. after a very long time. lots of things have happened since the last time i wrote here. saying goodbyes to friends that were there for me when i needed them, heartbreaks, heartache for A[sorry to bring this up] long awesome vacation, the world cup, playing for a band(which sounds awesome by the way) & lots of drinking. you know, the usual stuff that happens in this shit hole of a place.

a new semester. more classes. more practicals. more new people. more crap to put up with. well, at least it hasn't been that bad till now. i don't look forward to anything anymore. waking up in the morning feels like something that i am bound to do. i dont enjoy waking up in the morning and looking forward to the day ahead, like i used to. maybe A was right when he told me a couple of days back that it is my midlife crisis. but 15 years earlier. well, we will see what happens in the next few months. hopefully everything changes for the better or the worse. we just have to wait and see.

A's cruising through his life it seems or at least it feels like it. a few bumps here and there but he seems to sort it all out in the end. he looks happy. it makes me feel happy. it may sound cheesy. but it's the truth. i am not kidding. I'm pretty fucking serious.

moving on. ah, the old friends. they are still around. feels really good to be around people. i had lost that feeling for the past couple of months now. there were times when i just wanted to be alone. it went on for days even weeks. for anyone who's reading this, you must think i'm pretty fucking emo. well, i'm not. so fuck you.



i love you all.


D


music: sparklehorse - its a wonderful life [damn, it's depressing]

fuck you

fuck all those people who used me!!!! im not fucking falling for that again!!!



assholes!!!!!

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I cant believe it D, I think its been over a year i think since we first started frooling pur thoughts into the cyberspace, did we do it because we wanted to be heard , did we do it coz in our subconciousness, we thought we would be 'found' by some 1 similar to us , or....whoi are we kidding, no1 besides u n me, reads this post, n we dont give a FUCK abt thjat. haha

Abt ur last post here, i feel u dude, u did go thru a rough time, pretty rough, but u still standing, n thats wat counts, z scars u've been left with is deep me knows .

10-1 starts next week n we gonna party like the freaks we are.



...And You Will Know Us By The Trail Of Dead..-How Near. How far?

Back again.

A,

we have to start with this shit again. We both know that we have been through really tough times in the past few months but we're still hanging in there, arent we?

Errrr, its almost 5 in the morning and im not sleepy yet. the insomina shit has strunk again. nth much going on with my life. the same crap over and over again.

I'd like to wish 'A' good luck with his new life which officially started a week back. "FOR THE GOOD TIMES!!!"

Music playing: Pavement - Slanted & Enchanted.

guy on 2nd right

its been a while huh D, we both gave up hope on thios site opening from here, but it has, n i have found a perfect way to start teh new blog season, check @ the circled guy, dadoes it get any better than that, hahahaha, hope it cheers u up a bit b4 ur kaoshi dude, well its 3 Am, n I'm writin this blog, I have to sleep but I wanted 2 write this b4 that. Back in Wuhan, doin nothing really, at least I go to class, n read books from time to time, I hope it keeps growing n continues for a while, it'd b gud. Wont write much, its just a teaser per say, have much more over the comin days ... c u then

Look What U've Done- Jet

kathmandu calling

I look over at the sky one more time, I dont know, the sky seems nearer, the stars closer. May its just me or may b its just Kathmandu. Its grown into a city of 2 million and that has broght lots of changes here, gud or bad may b i'll write taht in the next blog. 2day i pay my tribute to the gr8 city that has been my home all my life and say it feels go od to b a kathmanduite . more than 2 month to the day that i came back to np with kele n ya it was a rainy gloomy day n ya of course one of the frist things we talked was abt the lack of infrastructure and blah blah ing with this n that, the main thing was " I was home" no other place will ever mean as much as this place n it wont feel the same to say it.

N now i'm leaving in less than 24 hrs, leavin the city with all the uncertainties, the bands, the traffic jam n any fault u cud find, but i'm sad to say i will miss it, quite dont know what it is? Is it just my home, my parents, my cousins n friends or id it the city , i'll have the whole flight n the 20 hr train ride to think abt that. But its not just that i feel somethings changed within me, jus like KTM's changed. As i see it both the city n i am at a crossroad, the coming few months n years will tell what fate lies for us both, the power is within, i can feel its just upto us to use it.

Dasain ko subhakamana Pyaro Kathmandu.

Peace out